Whirlwind of a month...

I can't believe it is almost April. Although I must say, when I stepped into March and looked at the month ahead of me, I knew I would blink my eyes and March would be gone. It's been a crazy month for the Jackson's. Between March 2 and today, I think I have only been home 9 days...craziness. First it was Dallas, then Germany, then DC, and somewhere in there, I managed to sneak in a half marathon and other than raising two boys, the 13.1 miles may be one of my greatest accomplishments to date. With every step, I kept thinking about my wonderful little angel who will never have the opportunity to do what I was doing...run! I shouldn't be sad, I know he has a million fold in heaven to what we do here. But the mommy in me grieves all the things we will never get to see him do, all the things we will never experience with him, and I just plain grieve for him.

Easter is just around the corner. It's always been an emotional holiday for me as I ponder the sacrifice Jesus made so many years ago. This year it will be so hard for us. I think Cameron enjoyed Easter almost as much as he enjoyed Christmas. He couldn't wait to get dressed for church, hunt eggs, and have lunch at his grandmother's house. I'm just not sure if I can even be here for Easter this year; just thinking about it makes me cry. But I have to say, for as much as I miss Cameron and as much as my heart hurts, I have the assurance of knowing the Jesus' death brought new life; a life we can not fathom this side of heaven but a life my little Cam is absolutely enjoying abundantly. And that fact alone is what gets me out of bed day after day. Love to you all...