It's been a busy few days. Last Thursday was Connor's 14th birthday...gosh I cannot believe he is almost a man. It's amazing to see how much he is changing each and every day. He's almost as tall as I am, and yes, he thinks he is twice as smart and perhaps he actually is. At times the teenager in him makes me want to scream but I also see the wonderful sweet spirit he has. He'll be off to high school next year. I am so excited for the opportunities in store for him. However, not a day goes by that I don't wonder how Cameron's passing will effect him long term.
This past weekend, I flew to Dallas for a pediatric brain tumor meeting. It was my first meeting since Cam passed, and the first time I had really spent time with Cam's doctors since his service in November. I worried how it would make me feel but it was strangely therapeutic. I was able to spend some time with a few moms who walked this journey years before me. It's a rough club to belong to...I call it the sorority from hell. But at least I have them...what a gift in itself! I am not sure it will never be easy to look at MRI scans and survival curves and know how easily Cameron's situation could have turned out differently but continuing the fight against something he no longer can is what keeps my feet moving each day.
But the highlight of my weekend came before and after the conference. I was able to fly to Dallas early and spend the day with one of my best friends who moved to that area a few years ago. We stayed up late chatting and then did what girls do best the following day, we went shopping. And yes, I came home with the only appropriate Texas souvenir...cowboy boots!!! And as luck would have it, I got to see one of my dearest friends, a medulloblastoma researcher I met after Cameron's treatment, who was flying in to Dallas a few hours before I was set to leave. We had dinner and then I went and sat in the corner of DFW and did what I do best these days...cry.
The next few weeks will be just as crazy as the last few days. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we continue on through this really rough time.
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You will always be in my heart and my thoughts! Your strength and courage have taught me so much. Cameron's outlook on life have made an impression on my heart that will never go away. Take care of you and your family! Judy Albrecht
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