Life is good!

It's so strange how tragedy can change your perspective on life. I don't know if I was one to complain prior to this journey with cancer...truthfully, I don't even remember life prior to Cam's cancer. But these days, I just don't find much to complain about. Every day of life is such a gift. In the midst of this crisis, I find myself surprisingly at peace. I am so grateful that EJ and I both have wonderful jobs that allow us to be flexible and spend time with Cameron. I feel so blessed that we have such amazing friends surrounding us and praying for us during this time. I am so thankful we have learned to let go of the little things in life that tend to drive most crazy. And most of all, I am just thankful beyond words that Cameron has been headache free for almost 7 weeks. Seeing him smile, play, giggle, and even fight with Connor is worth more than gold.

Strangely enough, I feel closer to Christ than I ever have in my life and yet I still find it exceedingly hard to get on my knees and pray. Yes, I know, that is a bizarre statement but as a mom, I want certain things and as a believer, I want to trust Christ. In this situation, those two desires may not match and therefore, its exceedingly hard to pray. But God, being God, has obviously poured out everything I need because I've never trusted Him more than I do at this moment. I feel His presence everywhere, in everything, and I know He is in control of this situation...every single aspect of it. So for now...life is good!